Try, try again
I have been trying to write another post for a while now, but I admit, it has been hard. I'm not sure exactly what to write and I seem to get lost in my own head over it, get overwhelmed and then give up. I am such an emotional girl!
I am so very excited to see what God has for Dan's and my future. Things seem to be coming together. I can only say that this week holds a whole lot of answers to a lot of prayers. I can't say what they all are yet though. I am just so excited to continue following where God is leading. We are so close to getting ready to move. Dan has been putting August 20 as his first day available for work. That is so close! We are kind of sure about where we will be moving. I can't tell you how great that is. We have been making plans about what we will do and what we are looking for in a house. We want a one story with three to four bedrooms. I figure that three bedrooms and two living spaces or four bedroom and one living space would be good. We want to have an office. Well, Dan wants an office, I call it a study. We could also call it a library. If we did that, then I want to have a a candle stick or a picture with a women in a red dress with a candle stick in her hand (you know, Ms. Scarlet with the candle stick in the library.) We also would like to have land enough for Dan to build a workshop for wood working or a garage big enough for a car and a work shop. I wouldn't mind just parking on the street, but if it's night time, I may rather want to pull right into the garage. Any way, we don't care if things like the bathroom and kitchen aren't up to par because we can just rip those out and start all over.
God has really been leading me into a lot of unknown areas lately. I have been doing a mentor type counseling thing (not counseling like "shrink" stuff, but more self improvement stuff). I don't know if you are familiar with the concept of strongholds, and spiritual warfare, but if you do know, then you know what I have been experiencing when I say that I have been experiencing some crazy spiritual warfare this last month and God has been working to remove strongholds from my life. I won't go into a huge explanation of the terms because I think right now I am so the last person who could really explain it all so it would make sense, but basically, I have ideas or beliefs about things that have governed how I make decisions and they are false. An example is that I have been holding others to my standard for how they should be living and that is so totally wrong. God is the only one who can judge where a person should be with their life. I know what is right and wrong as far as what the Bible tells me, but I have been holding a measuring cup to other people's ministry life. I am so completely sorry for that. A friend brought it to my attention last week and I was so humbled to realize she was right. I have since sought God's forgiveness for it and then had to forgive myself and seek her forgiveness. That was a stronghold, believing I had that right. Unfortunately with strong holds come deep rooted habits in the thought life. I am working very hard through prayer and accountability to get free of that. I know it would be easy to brush that all off as in saying it's just human. God didn't call me however to be just human. He said be like Jesus, so that's what I will do. If I am 90 and still working on this well, then bi golly, so be it, but I refuse to give up. If I am going to be an example of Jesus and his sacrifice for all man kind, I rather go all the way then stop at "Oh, well I'm just human."
As a closing I would like to put a plug in for the Rottilover. That is in fact my sister-in law. Now my sister and one sister-in law and I have blogs. I would like to use a bit of peer pressure to encourage my awesome other sister and other two sister-in laws to jump on the band wagon. Meredeth, I know exactly what your blog could have on it, a skull and cross bones that looks like Elvis! :) lol I have had that thought in my head for weeks. If I could find one, you know I would get it for you in an instant!
I will let you all know next week what new things are afoot.
I am so very excited to see what God has for Dan's and my future. Things seem to be coming together. I can only say that this week holds a whole lot of answers to a lot of prayers. I can't say what they all are yet though. I am just so excited to continue following where God is leading. We are so close to getting ready to move. Dan has been putting August 20 as his first day available for work. That is so close! We are kind of sure about where we will be moving. I can't tell you how great that is. We have been making plans about what we will do and what we are looking for in a house. We want a one story with three to four bedrooms. I figure that three bedrooms and two living spaces or four bedroom and one living space would be good. We want to have an office. Well, Dan wants an office, I call it a study. We could also call it a library. If we did that, then I want to have a a candle stick or a picture with a women in a red dress with a candle stick in her hand (you know, Ms. Scarlet with the candle stick in the library.) We also would like to have land enough for Dan to build a workshop for wood working or a garage big enough for a car and a work shop. I wouldn't mind just parking on the street, but if it's night time, I may rather want to pull right into the garage. Any way, we don't care if things like the bathroom and kitchen aren't up to par because we can just rip those out and start all over.
God has really been leading me into a lot of unknown areas lately. I have been doing a mentor type counseling thing (not counseling like "shrink" stuff, but more self improvement stuff). I don't know if you are familiar with the concept of strongholds, and spiritual warfare, but if you do know, then you know what I have been experiencing when I say that I have been experiencing some crazy spiritual warfare this last month and God has been working to remove strongholds from my life. I won't go into a huge explanation of the terms because I think right now I am so the last person who could really explain it all so it would make sense, but basically, I have ideas or beliefs about things that have governed how I make decisions and they are false. An example is that I have been holding others to my standard for how they should be living and that is so totally wrong. God is the only one who can judge where a person should be with their life. I know what is right and wrong as far as what the Bible tells me, but I have been holding a measuring cup to other people's ministry life. I am so completely sorry for that. A friend brought it to my attention last week and I was so humbled to realize she was right. I have since sought God's forgiveness for it and then had to forgive myself and seek her forgiveness. That was a stronghold, believing I had that right. Unfortunately with strong holds come deep rooted habits in the thought life. I am working very hard through prayer and accountability to get free of that. I know it would be easy to brush that all off as in saying it's just human. God didn't call me however to be just human. He said be like Jesus, so that's what I will do. If I am 90 and still working on this well, then bi golly, so be it, but I refuse to give up. If I am going to be an example of Jesus and his sacrifice for all man kind, I rather go all the way then stop at "Oh, well I'm just human."
As a closing I would like to put a plug in for the Rottilover. That is in fact my sister-in law. Now my sister and one sister-in law and I have blogs. I would like to use a bit of peer pressure to encourage my awesome other sister and other two sister-in laws to jump on the band wagon. Meredeth, I know exactly what your blog could have on it, a skull and cross bones that looks like Elvis! :) lol I have had that thought in my head for weeks. If I could find one, you know I would get it for you in an instant!
I will let you all know next week what new things are afoot.
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I'm glad things are going well. I'm still rooting for Boise, and so is mom. :)