Purpose
"My soul has become troubled; and what shall I say, 'Father, save Me from this hour?' But for this purpose I came to this hour. Father, glorify Thy name." John 12:27-28 (NASB)
At this point maybe I shouldn't be, maybe I should expect it, but still, I am amazed when God speaks, when He orchestrates events or things to bring me back to him. I have gotten distracted with earthly circumstances and expectations and disappointments and I have and am struggling to refocus. This resent move has shook me in ways I hadn't expected. I knew God was calling us to our new home, but I did not expect the foundation for what He is building here to include humbling me. I find myself flat at the foot of the cross wondering what happened. I had achieved a comfortable set life with church, friends and ministry; working with college kids and helping women in crisis pregnancies.
Well, now I am starting all over new church which is completelly different than what I am used to, a new pregnancy center that is way different than I am used too. I have struggled with going back to being a volunteer when once I was staff. I was in charge of a fundraiser and now I am helper once again. My point in sharing this is not to invite you to a pitty part, oh no! I already had my one girl pitty party. I'm done now. I forgot what my purpose was and I am thankful that God has started bringing me back to His purpose. Oswald Chamber said it just right:
The true test of a person's spiritual life and character is not what he does in the extraordinary moments of life, but what he does during the ordinary times when there is nothing tremendous or exciting happening. A person's worth is revealed in his attitude toward the ordinary things of life when he is not under the spotlight (see John 1:35-37 and 3:30). It is painful work to get in step with God to keep pace with Him - it means getting your second wind spiritually...Don't give up because the pain is intense right now - get on with it, and before long you will find that you have a new vision and a new purpose.
No one sees me being extraordinary. I'm not doing anything particularly special to the world's eyes. Not only am I not making a huge pay check, I'm not making one at all and to the world that is down right scandalous. I am not of course finished because if I were then I could be like Enoch or Elijah and be swept up to Heaven with out even death. Those of us who are Christ followers are mere visitors, guests, travelers, passing through, ambassadors. I have forgotten that. Right now, where I am at, in all it's non impressiveness is where God wants to use me to bring me closer to Him and to use me as a testimony. I am excited to see where He is taking me because I know I am going to be used in my new temporary home (Heaven is my destination, that's my home everything else is temporary). I can see what is coming now and I am excited about what I see. But I'm not there yet. I'm still in today in all it's ordinariness. I think I can be okay with that. No, not just okay, I am so blessed.
At this point maybe I shouldn't be, maybe I should expect it, but still, I am amazed when God speaks, when He orchestrates events or things to bring me back to him. I have gotten distracted with earthly circumstances and expectations and disappointments and I have and am struggling to refocus. This resent move has shook me in ways I hadn't expected. I knew God was calling us to our new home, but I did not expect the foundation for what He is building here to include humbling me. I find myself flat at the foot of the cross wondering what happened. I had achieved a comfortable set life with church, friends and ministry; working with college kids and helping women in crisis pregnancies.
Well, now I am starting all over new church which is completelly different than what I am used to, a new pregnancy center that is way different than I am used too. I have struggled with going back to being a volunteer when once I was staff. I was in charge of a fundraiser and now I am helper once again. My point in sharing this is not to invite you to a pitty part, oh no! I already had my one girl pitty party. I'm done now. I forgot what my purpose was and I am thankful that God has started bringing me back to His purpose. Oswald Chamber said it just right:
The true test of a person's spiritual life and character is not what he does in the extraordinary moments of life, but what he does during the ordinary times when there is nothing tremendous or exciting happening. A person's worth is revealed in his attitude toward the ordinary things of life when he is not under the spotlight (see John 1:35-37 and 3:30). It is painful work to get in step with God to keep pace with Him - it means getting your second wind spiritually...Don't give up because the pain is intense right now - get on with it, and before long you will find that you have a new vision and a new purpose.
No one sees me being extraordinary. I'm not doing anything particularly special to the world's eyes. Not only am I not making a huge pay check, I'm not making one at all and to the world that is down right scandalous. I am not of course finished because if I were then I could be like Enoch or Elijah and be swept up to Heaven with out even death. Those of us who are Christ followers are mere visitors, guests, travelers, passing through, ambassadors. I have forgotten that. Right now, where I am at, in all it's non impressiveness is where God wants to use me to bring me closer to Him and to use me as a testimony. I am excited to see where He is taking me because I know I am going to be used in my new temporary home (Heaven is my destination, that's my home everything else is temporary). I can see what is coming now and I am excited about what I see. But I'm not there yet. I'm still in today in all it's ordinariness. I think I can be okay with that. No, not just okay, I am so blessed.
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