Interview update
Well, I can say I am not going to be an insurance salesperson. It was my choice actually. I realized it just would not work for me unfortunately. I would have been great at it I believe and I believe the job was mine if I wanted it, but I had to say no. Bummer. I just so want a job and move foreword that I was pretty disappointed. I let them know that if there is another position that becomes available to let me know.
This experience has really brought to light my struggle to keep focus on what defines success for me. I feel sometimes very unsuccessful when I compare my life with the lives of people who have careers and are making a lot of money or say people who have children. Today I felt really confused as I tried to sift through my emotions following this morning's interview. I know, had this job worked for me and I took it, I would have a career that would have great financial returns. I would have been good at it. I was frustrated because I felt like a failure for turning down this opportunity.
On the other hand, again, the factors for success at this job are not the same factors that God has shown me equal success in my life. My life is some what unorthodox to the normal social formula for success and sometimes I get a little turned around and confused when both are whirling around in my head.
This interview process does have it's gains however. I am more aware now of my strengths and weaknesses and am more proactive at becoming better. I feel like there has been a shift like a focus and mental realignment that has taken place these last couple of weeks and I am eager to see the results play out over this next year.
I have another job interview coming up Monday. I will continue putting my resume out there. I am also really working at my writing and am diligently focused on my children's writing program to become a professional children's writer. I am praying about whether to be a child advocate again. We will see. I am also hoping to be the sexual integrity and abstinence spokes person for the local Care Net Resource Pregnancy Center Inc. These are still all in the works, so I do appreciate your prayer.
This experience has really brought to light my struggle to keep focus on what defines success for me. I feel sometimes very unsuccessful when I compare my life with the lives of people who have careers and are making a lot of money or say people who have children. Today I felt really confused as I tried to sift through my emotions following this morning's interview. I know, had this job worked for me and I took it, I would have a career that would have great financial returns. I would have been good at it. I was frustrated because I felt like a failure for turning down this opportunity.
On the other hand, again, the factors for success at this job are not the same factors that God has shown me equal success in my life. My life is some what unorthodox to the normal social formula for success and sometimes I get a little turned around and confused when both are whirling around in my head.
This interview process does have it's gains however. I am more aware now of my strengths and weaknesses and am more proactive at becoming better. I feel like there has been a shift like a focus and mental realignment that has taken place these last couple of weeks and I am eager to see the results play out over this next year.
I have another job interview coming up Monday. I will continue putting my resume out there. I am also really working at my writing and am diligently focused on my children's writing program to become a professional children's writer. I am praying about whether to be a child advocate again. We will see. I am also hoping to be the sexual integrity and abstinence spokes person for the local Care Net Resource Pregnancy Center Inc. These are still all in the works, so I do appreciate your prayer.
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