Diagnosis: Recurrent Fear Overcoming Peace (FOP), Cure: Jesus


George Matheson wrote June 6, 1886:

O love that wilt not let me go, I rest my weary soul in thee; I give thee back the life I owe, that in thine ocean depths its flow may richer fuller be.

Matheson was blind. Because of his blindness, his fiancee broke off their engagement. He never married. It was this experience that compelled him to ever push deeper into the love of his Heavenly Father.

That is what I want to do. As my sister, Michelle wrote on her blog, I do struggle a lot with not just the loss of my precious Adam and Charis but the possibility that I could lose another child. This at times is incapacitating. Health Insurance will help pay for the diagnosis but not the treatment I have learned. I don't know if I mentioned it before, but I have made an appointment with a doctor that has experience with infertility and at risk pregnancies. That will be I believe May 8.

Through all this though, I know I do not want to become hardened by fear but rather, I want to press ever deeper into God's love. When fear is allowed to reign, it cripples, but when I press into my Abba (Hebrew for Daddy) King, then peace pours in like a cleansing rain. Fibrodysplasia officans progressiva or FOP is when the joints harden and bones are fused leaving a person hard and unmoving. I resist Fear Overcoming Peace, my own FOP of the heart and spirit by tapping into the one source who knows how to heal my heart, my Abba King.

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Anonymous said…
MY DEAR DAUGHTER--I am sitting here reading and crying. You have such talent and I know GOD will BLESS you with children as I am praying as I write this. You know that my love is wrapped around you. Do not be concerned as I know GOD loves you and will be with you always. Please remember--anytime you need me My LOve is there--all you have to do is reach out around you. You are so much in a way as Michelle as you are both so perceptive and understand what our FATHER is and what his plan is for all of us. I did not meet you by accident--God had his hand all over that.

GOD BLESS you my fine daughter.
Dad
April 25, 2008 5:11 PM
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