I don't do what I should do and I do what I shouldn't do, say what I shouldn't and don't say what I should. Still with me?
This week I was all kinds of cranky for no reason. I tried to be nice, but it just wasn't happening. I didn't have it in me to make my words kind, gentle or loving. I was impatient, unforgiving and mean. I succeeded at zingers and sarcasm, barbs and bullying. I bullied Dan in his attempts to appease me and got mad when he just walked away from me.
Wed. morning I sat down and looked up "Strength" in my Hebrew/Greek dictionary to get a better sense of what is in my strength and what is in Gods. Here is what I found.
DUNAMIS: strength denotes power: Rev. 1:16, 1 Corinthians 15:56, 2 Corinthians 1:8, 12:19, Rev. 8, 12:10
ICHUS: strength denotes ability: Mark 12:30,33, Luke 10:27, Rev. 5:12
KRATOS: strength denotes force: Luke 1:51, Ephesians 1:19
I am thankful that though the out pouring of the fruit of the Spirit is beyond my ability, it is never beyond God's power to express what is of His Holy Spirit through me forcing my living in my flesh to be an example of His grace. I was able to see Dan's forgiveness and mercy and love and see God through that and thus feel some insane amount of humility because though I acted like a total butt head, God continued to stick with me and though he wanted to give it right back to me (well at times he did), Dan chose to make dinner, light some candles, do the laundry and watch Miss Wiggles so I could go out by myself today. Yes, I am bragging on my husband.
I am hoping though that I am as merciful with Dan during his "moments" as he is with mine. I am thankful that though I am never as merciful as Jesus, He is always completely merciful with me.
Wed. morning I sat down and looked up "Strength" in my Hebrew/Greek dictionary to get a better sense of what is in my strength and what is in Gods. Here is what I found.
DUNAMIS: strength denotes power: Rev. 1:16, 1 Corinthians 15:56, 2 Corinthians 1:8, 12:19, Rev. 8, 12:10
ICHUS: strength denotes ability: Mark 12:30,33, Luke 10:27, Rev. 5:12
KRATOS: strength denotes force: Luke 1:51, Ephesians 1:19
I am thankful that though the out pouring of the fruit of the Spirit is beyond my ability, it is never beyond God's power to express what is of His Holy Spirit through me forcing my living in my flesh to be an example of His grace. I was able to see Dan's forgiveness and mercy and love and see God through that and thus feel some insane amount of humility because though I acted like a total butt head, God continued to stick with me and though he wanted to give it right back to me (well at times he did), Dan chose to make dinner, light some candles, do the laundry and watch Miss Wiggles so I could go out by myself today. Yes, I am bragging on my husband.
I am hoping though that I am as merciful with Dan during his "moments" as he is with mine. I am thankful that though I am never as merciful as Jesus, He is always completely merciful with me.
Comments
You handled the situation well when you realized what was happening. And hats off to your husband (and you can tell him that for me :).
Hope you all had a great Christmas and New Years. wb