Not a pretty post, I'm just warning you now

Update: Just so you know, I went back and reread my post so yes I do realize it looks like a second grader wrote it. I'm hormonal, tired and have a toddler people! Ok, sorry no body was on my case about it but PMS makes me slightly schizophrenic and insanely prideful. No, I'm not proud of it. Wait that doesn't make sense. I'm going to leave it the way it is. Our lives can look to perfect here in the blogosphere anyway. Here is a slice of reality ladies.

Nothing has prepared me for this. I thought those first months were the hardest. I thought I never expected to get to the toddler stage and see my sweet little angel develop a temper in need of anger management counseling or a right hook that belongs in boxing. She reduced me to tears today as she yelled and failed for the billionth time and for seemingly to reason at all. I realize she is trying to communicate but that she goes straight to anger before ever really trying to communicate is so out of my league. I'm a people pleaser, calm, anger under the surface kind of a person. My SIL keeps telling me how much Miss Wiggles is so much like her T. My SIL is so much more equipped than I to handle this kind of personality, she could go toe to toe with anyone. She's strong and fiesty. I'm so not fiesty (accept when I'm hormonal, then I'm just caddy so thats totally different I guess). I hate feeling like I'm walking on egg shells afraid to relax when she is smiling and enjoying herself because then wham! screech and kick. ~Heavy long suffering sigh~ I hate that I look so forward to nap time. I love my time with Miss Wiggles. I'm not ready for this. I'm just being honest, I'm just so not ready for this.

So, you know what my answer to this is? Start trying for another one. Yeah, Hubby thought I was crazy too. Seriously though. Miss Wiggles needs a sibling. She will learn to serve others more, compromise more, share, listen, know that she isn't always going to be first. I know having siblings is a very good thing. OK so there are a lot of people who have siblings and never learn these things. I've got lots of siblings though and I'm going to stick to this logic. No dis to only children, I'll just throw that in there. I wanted my children to be close in age so its time anyway. Mind you though it took me three years and two miscarriages to get to Miss Wiggles. Hopefully this will go smoother. We will see.

Comments

Packer Family said…
Good for you and keep at it with the anger! I have 2 out of 3 with crazy tempers. If you want a few tips that work for us just email me:)
March 10, 2010 4:28 PM
Melissa said…
I truly hope everything goes well with the next pregnancy. I cannot imagine how nervous you must be. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you.
March 10, 2010 5:48 PM
April said…
If it makes you feel better, this is a phase all toddlers go through, but granted some have higher tempers than others, but you are not alone. Terrible twos aren't just for two year olds it is the second year of life. Mostly it is a personality thing, which on the anger side needs to be disciplined, but most strong willed children have such wonderful character traits that come out later in life, they are passionate about what they believe in, they stand up for themselves, are courageous. So not all bad. Lauren when she is happy, is all out happy, when mad, whew. But consistency is key. You will grow and be challenged, but you need to know if you pick a battle you need to win. So I have learned over these past few years, I need to be careful what battles I am going to pick with them. :-) Smiles. Siblings help with sharing and caring for each other, but I am afraid that some personality traits are just that, their personality. Good luck with trying to concieve!
March 11, 2010 5:20 AM
James Chandler said…
I couldn't have said it any better than April. But don't walk on egg shells, enjoy the good moments. There will be many. Take the bad in stride and make the boundaries, and when the bad comes, time outs are wonderful. It give you and her a break.
March 11, 2010 5:50 AM
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March 11, 2010 12:52 PM
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