Doin' good

It doesn't get much better than that.

Things are good right now. Thank you all for your kind words. You know, it was a lot easier this time around. There wasn't the fear that it just wasn't ever gonna work for me since I have Miss Wiggles. Having her also meant that I had no choice but to keep going, to play, to smile and laugh for her.

I still grieve the loss. My dad has predicted every child in our family and a few friends as well. He always knows whether a boy or girl will be born. He has never been wrong. So when he said I was pregnant with a boy, I didn't doubt. So my little Owen is with Adam and Charis. I always have a picture of a playground in Heaven. I know that isn't Biblically accurate but I do none the less have a picture in my mind of my children and my friends children and my own sibling and my nieces in Heaven in a really big play ground that is red with sand and blue accents. There is the little ones, all of them that I love and can't wait to meet someday playing and waiting.

This last week we went to the beach. Well yes, I live at the beach but its a beach off of the bay and as I told a good friend recently that just isn't the same as a beach of the ocean with its rhythmic crashing waves.

I healed. I was relaxed. And it just so happened though we spent the week renting a house with three other couples and their kids, Wiggles and I actually had the house to ourselves for one whole night and day. It was amazing. I've dreamed about doing that, sitting alone at the ocean in a beach house writing and enjoying the solitude. Having Wiggles with me made it even better. I hope to someday make more memories of mommy daughter time and many family beach trips to store up in her heart and mind to build her up to help propel her forward and make her stronger. Hubby and I both have fond memories of beach vacations. That is a legacy worth passing on.

So we are moving on. We are enjoying our life. We have discussed what to do next. As far as planning goes, we will give it one more try and if its a no go then we will look into adoption. I've already got my sites on Korea and Thailand. :) I've always wanted to adopt though and having Hubby come around to it, hey maybe no matter how things go, we can still adopt. I would be all for that.